D-U-N done!

I've been sick since last Thursday. I haven't been to work since then. I got a blessing on Saturday morning and I was told that I would feel better soon. Like a couple of days. I'm still just as sick today. I've been taking the medication faithfully but all it's done is take the edge off of the pain. I still feel like ass. Just not curled up on the floor ready to die ass. Just ass. Just not double ass on a shingle. Matt, Matt, and I are going back to another doctor to get a second opinion. The meds they gave us aren't helping at all. Matt Hewitt and I are totally resolute that we aren't paying for the visit. I just hope this goes away soon. I'm getting more and more discouraged by the day. It's getting harder and harder to believe that I'm going to get better. It's getting harder and harder to believe that I'm going to succeed. I'm trying like hell to be positive and believe in myself. But believing in myself has always been hard. It's one of my biggest obstacles in life.

Being sick is killing my confidence and belief that I can do well. I want so much to do well and hit my goal of 125 sales. Especially since I got sick the day that I started to feel myself really understand what I'm doing and how I can really do well at this. I keep thinking there is a reason for it, But the longer that I sit around all day in pain, the harder it gets to keep believing it.

I need to find a way to believe in myself again. I just wish I knew where to get it.